It Starts Here...

It has been an entirely crazy ride so far. If you were to ask me a 6 months ago where would I be today, I probably wouldn't believe you. I would not trade my experience for the world, I wouldn't actually trade my experience for anything. YWAM ( youth with a mission ) for those who do not know, has completely turned my world upside down. Looking back at my past, I see Gods hand in my life more than ever, and throughout the beginning of college as I began to seek him, he was preparing my heart for this all along. It has not been an easy year for me, losing Tyler at the end of our romance was probably one of the hardest things I saw God bring me through, and after that came a rough experience of learning and accepting the value of his obedience, and how our acts of obedience truly measure where this crazy life can take you. Moral of the story, I've said yes. I've always longed for something more, something more than late  night parties, bad boyfriends, beer pong, a nice car, and a good body. I didn't find success in the same things my peers did, and to this day I have a hard time even understanding where this heart comes from, and why God gave it to to me. I fought it growing up, thinking if I could just be like everyone else, it would be easier than feeling compassion. That if I could ignore what was in my heart, it would go away...but it never went away. It has only been very recent that I have answered the call that god has put on my life, and that call is pursue his purpose on my life. In the means of everyday living, I am called to show people the love of God, and to have it be made known. Whether it be in coffee shops, or in Cambodia. I am called not to settle for the ordinary, the routine, the every day. I am called to pursue greatness, holiness, and a life filled with his love. I am pursuing not for my own experience, but for the experience of others. I want not to be selfish with this heart he has given me, but instead...I want to give it away.  I know that the life I am giving up will be missed, but I believe Gods plan is better than my plan. I know that deep in my heart me pursuing the life God has called me to live will leave me with no regrets, just experience. Way more experience than the regret I would feel if I continued to say no to the call on my life. The years of saying no, and mediocre things are over. I am pursuing great things, Godly things, and I want you to come join me. To an incredible beginning....